I haven't written for some time recently which was caused by my trip to the homeland. So many things are going on these days that I didn't have time to stop and think. Although I am spending wonderful moments with my family and friends I noticed that neglecting everyday time with God brings some discouragement and weird thoughts. However, today and throughout last days I was witnessing again how caring and loving is God. It's amazing how challenging and stressful affaires become simple with Him. I am really impressed by it especially as I know I don't deserve for so much.
The last days are also a bit confusing for me.  I came home after almost five months and I returned to some my old habits so naturally, that I even may imagine that Paris had never happened. Such a weird feeling, like all things that passed throughout last months were only a dream. So, people, were you real or just a part of my imagination? :) I guess, I'll find out in few days when I go back, but  for now I wil try to take most of my staying here and even make myself to study.
It's good to be here with family and friends, but I am so encouraged by the book I am reading at the moment that tells the life of Jim Elliot, that I am looking forward to going back and put into life the challenges that God gives for MY missionary work. But my heart is broken because not only in Paris I see the longing of people for God...
To finish, my today's main reflection came when I was telling my friend about God's love and the Salvation. I reminded that we are to declare that Jesus is the Lord. And asking myself when was the last time that I told that in front of others I couldn's find the answer. I think I won't find anyone until tomorrow to tell it, but I have a need to share it with you. So I am writing: Jesus is my Lord.
And what is your attitude to this declaration?

Do not be afraid!

" 13 Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. ¹⁴ The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."

This fragment of the 14th chapter of Exodus may fully summarise not only this day but basically many of expierences I am having here. I encourage you to read the whole chapter for the context :) My reflections corresponding to these verses are thanks to my friend who shared with me this text today. It was such an inspiring discussion. Thank you! 

Today I've had my last exam of January. I was really struggling to force myself for studying because the subject was sooo difficult that I didn't believe I would succeed with any of the exercices. But as in this fragment of Exodus Lord helped me and inspired me to revise one of the exemplary exams which turned out to be the same as my today exam. Although I didn't manage to do most of the exercices I am grateful that at least I did not waste the time when I was studying :)

The life with God is amazing and gives the reason, a deep reason for everything that happens. It helpes me to appreciate every little moment when I remind myself of His love. It is thanks to Him that after a failure on the exam I could spend a calm evening, finally inspired to paint... :)

Why did I start to write this blog...

Becuase for this moment I find it the best way to keep in touch with many of you (although it's rather a one-way contact) and to express my thoughts and experiences that I want to share. But most of all because I'd love to share about how I live following Jesus. There are two more questions that might come to your mind. The first one is why do I want to write it in English. Actually, this is very reasonable - I believe and hope that there will be international readers, thanks to my Erasmus experience, and for my Polish fellows :) it will be an opportunity to practice your language skills a bit (though I don't want to take the responsibility for my grammar mistakes). Yes, and that's the other reason - simply egoistic, I am so in need to practice my English because I neglected it recently in order to focus more on my French.
The last question is: why do I write today? or rather tonight... I'm having an exam on Friday and I have been studying the whole evening and I will be still studying couple hours at night...
But as the title of this blog, it is a day, every single day that really counts. And even though my exams are really important I came to the point when I realised that I live for God and I believe that He wants me to share things that he is doing in my life. And I don't know what tomorrow brings, so I don't want to keep telling: I'll do that another day.
So tonight, to start with something, just a short reflection after this day. God is taking care of His children. I passed my exam today. Normally it is not a big deal. But here, I had never imagined that passing an exam is not anything obvious. I studied very hard but it wasn't enough to write it well. I almost believed that I will fail. But I prayed and trusted God that His plan would accomplish in this experience. And today I just couldn't believe my eyes that I got exactly 50% needed for passing these exams. Both of them :) It's so encouraging for working more but at the same time keeping in mind who I am thankful to for all of this.
Thank you for all your prayers and believing that everything will be allright.
And, have you noticed how it changed my attitude to studies? Who what have thought that I would be praying for passing the exam not for a good note... But that's how it is at UPMC...
For this first time of my blog I don't have time to write more. I don't know if it is interesting for you, if not at least it will be me who will benefit most of writing my own Paris diary...